The Cheapest Thrill

    The one constant that seems to be in law school is the amount of atheists I find... strong ones... no sitting on the fence in this ball park... swing for the fences in your face I'm an atheist... it's a weekly occurance... and maybe I shouldn't be surprised by it... but I am surprised.
    Here we are in a profession that makes a living in the grey area... 'It Depends' as our favorite answer... no solid lines, no absolutes... merely an argument... sometimes for arguments sake...
    Sure a decision gets made, because they to get made, because the world has to work... A person is found guilty or innocent... true... but it's only because we set up the box... we built the guidelines... we set out the imaginary walls of our culture... but... we know full well that the lines that are made up in our heads, in our words, in our courts, and it's an illusion... They exist because we enforce them... but they don't mean anything after that... we could just as easily have completely different laws, and completely different systems, and a completely different culture... and we know it... and every day we argue over what kind of rules we want... and why?
   And I would think a profession that is taught that it 'depends'... and taught to think... and taught to question... and taught to see things from every angle... and argue every side... wouldn't be strong on anything with so little knowledge to go by... The brightest minds in the country and they haven't thought to question why?... Who constantly search for beauty, and love, and enjoyment, and a connection... and never thought to ever question why?... Who see all the hurt, and pain, and death in this world... and never thought to question why?... Who search for meaning but can never actually put their finger on it...


Who in all their life, and in the knowledge of death, ever stop to think for a second that in their pretty little box... maybe something is missing...


This is the kind of stuff that would never make sense unless something greater than this existed... something like having someone you love pass away... I could never begin to imagine... unless I knew that someday things will all be made to work for good...


... because the answer of the world is no answer... it sounds pretty hopeless...

Just like a crow chasing a butterfly,

Dandelions lost in the summer sky,

When you and I were getting high as outer space,

I never thought you would slip away,

I guess I was just a little too late.

But even worse might be to burst with joy and gratitude and have nothing and no one there to scream back that it has meaning, and there is beauty...

Just open your eyes
Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.

I know it is... but why?